Motivated by the feedback I received I tried to draw more, but every time I tried none of them satisfied me. I was just a girl who wrote in her diary all day, what could I do?

I got an idea.

At this time, I had a huge crush on a boy in my school. That metaphor was based off of that.

I realized that I liked this. I LIKED writing. While people used pictures to describe their feelings, I could use words. Today most of my earlier works make me cringe, but I leave them up to clock my progress as a writer.

Here's me experimenting various forms. Haikus and free verses are still my favorites.


I began writing six word stories as well. They were a challenge because I preferred using long and convoluted sentences to short and straight to the point ones. But I got the hang of them. 

I also tried to write a story, but I ended up scraping it. Maybe I'll get back to it one day. 

By this point I was writing tons more, too much to feature them all here. I focused mainly on mastering haikus, as they were quick and easy to write.

On of my last deviations of 2013 was "Where's Your Self-Esteem?", which to this day remains my most favorited deviation.

2014

Through this platform of writing I met many people who have the same interests as I do. To this day, I still have many friends which I couldn't have possibly met without DeviantArt.

I suffered many phases of writer's block. There were times when I just didn't want to come on. Still I pulled my shit together for HaikuWriMo.

HaikuWriMo took place in the month of February. Basically you had to submit a haiku everyday. I loved haikus, so I thought it'd be a great idea to participate. It was rather hectic, but it was fun.

As soon as HaikuWriMo ended Lent came. I promised myself I would give up the computers in my house (excusing school-related work) for Lent so then came my 40-day hiatus.

(It was boring.)

But I did post several things before I left. This one was a particular favorite.

When I came back a bout of writer's block began and I hardly posted anything. I tried another story (to this day I haven't followed up on it), tackled my view on relationships, and posted maybe one or two things I wrote during my hiatus.

School ended, summer began, and I was still hardly active. "Summertime Blues", I called it. I didn't pick back up until end of June, beginning of July, in which I started my '100 Most Beautiful Word in English' project. (I hardly mentioned this, did I? I meant to write a journal about it.), in which I wrote literature based off of one of the 100 Most beautiful Words in English. I like the idea and I kept following up on it. And to this day I have...6 done! Give it time, give it time.

I was gaining more support than I could ever hope for. I was just some random girl who hid behind a computer screen and wrote shit poetry, how could I have come so far? I kept joining groups, becoming friends with fellow deviants. I also encouraged others, because I knew what it felt like to have no motivation. What it felt to feel as if no one cared about what you did. Which to an artist, will always be a huge blow to their esteem.

Despite how sad my poetry sounds, being here is the happiest I've been in a while. How long will this mood last? Who knows? I just know that I'll be here, and I'll be here for a long time.

Happy birthday, DeviantArt.

-Chloe